it's all beeyooteefool -

July 31, 2006

@11:41 PM

yay :)

so i finally got rid of my green layout which was nice but apparently on some comps its impossible to read, plus it was getting rather boring, so. was attempting to make my own thingum on photoshop but then i figured i didnt have the time, so its back to blogskins.com. its such a pretty layout i couldn't resist, although orange and yellow and all that brightness is not exactly my style.

oh well, will stick to it for a while until the colours start blinding me & i get bored of it. heh :D

& i embraced the world;

July 30, 2006

@9:46 PM

You are my strength when I am weak,
You are the treasure that I seek,
You are my All in All

Seeking You as a precious jewel,
Lord to give up I'd be a fool,
You are my All in All

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame,
rising again i bless Your name,
You are my All in All

When I fall You pick me up,
When I am dry You fill my cup,
You are my All in All.

Better is one day in Your courts,
Better is one day in Your house,
Better is one day in Your courts,
Than thousands elsewhere.

-

there's something wonderful about Sundays that erases everything bad about the week beforehand, and when God works His magic there's nothing that can be compared to it. :)

& i embraced the world;

July 28, 2006

@1:21 AM

WHY GERMANY IS LOVE

1) my favourite chocolate - RITTERSPORT - comes from there!

2) my favourite car - VOLKSWAGEN (beetle)(limegreen) - comes from there!

3) my favourite sports brand - ADIDAS - comes from there!

4) STEFFI GRAF, the best tennis player (imo) in the history of women's singles, winning each grand slam at least 4 times, comes from there!

5) michael BALLACK, jens LEHMANN, philip LAHM, bastein SCHWEINSTEIGER (i cant spell this), lukas PODOLSKI, miroslav KLOSE, oliver KAHN come from there!

6) so does jurgen KLINSMANN.

7) klaus BADELT & hans ZIMMER are both german! bytheway, they're e people who composed e soundtrack for pirates of the caribbean, 1 and 2+3 respectively. not to mention a million other wonderful soundtracks i'll talk about in the next entry :)

8) js BACH, gf HANDEL, lv BEETHOVEN, cmv WEBER, f MENDELSSOHN, r SCHUMANN, r WAGNER (tristan and isolde!), j BRAHMS, r STRAUSS, are all from there!

9) german beer. of course this doesn't apply to me at all, but no harm adding it in.

10) michael schumacher, although im no fan of racing at all.

& i embraced the world;

July 26, 2006

@9:51 PM

hm, you won't see this because i dont think you read my blog, but anyways,
sarah cheang! hope everythings okay for you & dont let people get to you because you're a wonderful person & we all know it =)

oh and chuling too. thanks so much for the talk on the mrt the other day although i felt like everyone was listening in on our convo because they were all staring at you like some kind of freak haha. you look great, seriously! and jiayou for your o's, you'll totally get into acjc :) they have really nice uniforms. hahahah so random.

there're so many people around me dieting which makes me feel quite bad because im probably the one most in need of dieting hahaha but food is too much love. i mean when i ask some of them why they're dieting they either say they're not, they're just not hungry. the ones that admit it say its for health, BUT THEY'RE SKIPPING MEALS ENTIRELY and that is not being healthy! oh well. i ate a nice banana muffin today at jurong east library, it was almost as nice as mrs field's.

had peer tutoring today, but yiqun had tuition so she didn't come. ros & xiyun were great though & they're so cute! then some stranger from a secondary school i couldn't identify from uniform (it looked like commonwealth but yet not quite so im not sure) seemed to be waving/smiling at me as she passed so i was all confused because i absolutely did not recognise her. eek. i like tutoring peps kids they're so cute. i feel like tutoring the boys that jiawei's meant to tutor but he cant anymore. like when i was walking in today one of the boys called me 'cher! hahahah i was so amused but he's really quite cute larh.

if you asked me right now what i want to be when i grow up i'd say engineering or accountancy. but somehow i burst out today during football sabbats (when coach asked) by saying i want to go to africa to teach underprivileged children music. haha its something i've never dared to admit to other people because it sounds so erm. idealistic and do-gooder but well that's what i'd absolutely love to do. of course it means i'll need to actually be good at music first, sigh. shall work harder.

i've decided i'm going to support chelsea from now on! or at least, for this season of the epl. i mean frankly i have no interest whatsoever in football & i know absolutely nuts about each team, so im like the uber noob but i'm going to support chelsea anyway, simply because:

1) my dad supports man-u and arsenal so we'll have something to argue about. and when we watch matches, there'd be more atmosphere instead of just the silent munch of sour cream and onion pringles, or the over-heatingup of bakwa.

2) chelsea is rich, and im a mercenary person who judges people by money. HA.

3) THEY HAVE MICHAEL BALLACK AND ANY TEAM WITH A GERMAN PLAYER GETS MY UTMOST LOVE. ( which means i root for arsenal too, a bit. )

there, im done with fangirling. meanwhile i cannot wait until sunday! going to meet up with li-en (finally!), fish and yip to play tennis et badminton, whilst proving to fish that despite my formidable size i can BEAT HIM IN TENNIS. nyahahaha. although we're still going to go 3 against li-en. :)

& i embraced the world;

July 24, 2006

@9:52 PM

there is a story in china, about a young man who was taught by his shifu, the xiao (vertical flute thing). he stayed with his teacher from 5 onwards for 15 years and became renown throughout the entire city for his excellent xiao skills. together with his teacher, he travelled far in the kingdom, so that everybody knew of the beauty of the xiao. many came, crowding beneath makeshift stages simply to hear the melodies which guided them to unknown worlds. with time, his fame grew, and even the emperor claimed that beside the music of his xiao-playing, everything else seemed insignificant.

but one day, the shifu fell ill and died. he was, after all, an old man and the ceaseless travelling had taken its heavy toll on him. the young man, being heartbroken, after giving his shifu a stately funeral, decided that the only way to show his shifu the utmost respect was to never play the xiao again. he broke his xiao into two, buried one part with his shifu and the other he kept with him all the time. he never found another teacher, nor did he ever touch another xiao. and the kingdom never knew beauty again.

& i embraced the world;

July 23, 2006

@8:10 PM

amusing day :)

so uncle john's sermon was great! i think he really got the message accross, although evangelism is always going to be really hard for me, there are a lot of lovely people on the planet who i like too much to not care if they go to Hell. so i guess i'll try a bit harder. then i felt really guilty because i've been snapping away at everybody the past week & getting bad-tempered over e smallest details. worship was good too.

then before youth, feesh suddenly appeared! hahahaha well so he sat in on our cg & erm. xinyan took to him and they chatted a bit. apparently xinyan was born in shanghai! something i never knew. afterwards we had cell lunch, which i didnt know was happening so i didnt bring food! then feesh & i fluttered off to mcdonald's to get apple pies and fries to contribute. joy's brownies were much love.

went off with feesh to get bubble tea, whereas he got soursop concentrate drink thingthing & claimed it tasted like meat. and we went to imm! then there was a little fiasco because he, being very intelligent, went into the station drinking his drink blatantly. the officer shouted at me too although i wasnt drinking and it was in my plastic bag and everything. i dont eat and drink in mrts and buses! I DO ABIDE LAWS OKAY. grrr i've seen people who eat mcdonald's in mrts can!

at imm, strolled around for a bit, found hoimeng's mother's ice cream stall scoopz! and i overindulged once more, feesh said i'd be killing the temple of God (for the non-Christian, that means my body) with eating all that mcdonald's and ice cream but then i said i'm EXPANDING IT! :) makes sense right.

then hoimeng and darius trudged along and we stood around doing nothing until they left an hour later, & i went to giordano to buy polo tees! poor feesh getting dragged around by me. then we stood for a while more, & my family came so feesh went off to his grandmother's house. hahahahaha im so amused! went home and fell asleep only to wake up with a burning sore throat probably due to the fries and beehoon and brownies and feeling entirely unwell but went to dinner anyways, and now im back!

they're showing high school musical again, i cringe at its corniness but the songs are nice and heh disney channel is <3, juvenile as it seems. and now i shall set off to do some weekend homework which believe or not, i havent started yet! & next week is sabbats whee! so i dont know whether to go for cca or not because it finishes at three, by the time i shower and stuff itll be like 3.45, then kallang to school isnt exactly a short distance when one isnt taking a chartered bus. sigh. and feesh & yip and i have plans to play tennis on tuesday! heh. i harth all my s'hai friends, it was somewhere i really belonged i guess. singapore's a lot of love too and everyone's nice but there're times i feel really detached from it all. shall not elaborate or i'll start opening up too much haha. we walked through the neighbourhood park today! okay it really isnt a park, just a jogging lane but its the most beautiful place in singapore i tell you. its a family gathering place, there's places to play football, basketball, badminton, there's about four playgrounds, there's benches and those stone foot reflexology massage thingthings for old folks, there's the jogging track for people trying to lose weight or health fanatics, there's just so much familial love in the air. and nothing can beat familial love! except God's of course. i've talked too much as usual. g'day folks!

i have leaned on the wisdom of man
oh Lord, forgive me
and i have responded to them
instead of Your light and Your mercy
but now, oh Lord, i see my wrong
heal my heart and show Yourself strong
and in my eyes and in my song
oh Lord be magnified.

- Be Magnified, Fred Hammond

& i embraced the world;

July 22, 2006

@10:05 PM

so today while blogging, i sit at my desk eating preserved mandarin peels which i managed to buy for 6 for $1! i do think they sell them in our school popular at 30 cents per pack. MUAHAHA. anyways.

so today zhuanglaoshi bought a digital tuner for me, cost $50! -gasp-. the price of accurate music. its really kool and quite fun tuning except - i broke a string. AGAIN. muttermuttermutter i'll need to find some time to go to bras basah and get like three of every thin string on the guzheng and a couple sets of the highest e string on teh guitar. its quite miserable but oh well. and it hasnt been in my hands for more than 1 and a half hours, and I'VE DROPPED IT ALREADY! once only, thank goodness. i seriously need to be more responsible.

had family movie-at-home night last night (except my mum went to sleep halfway claiming that there were not enough hotties to gain her interest) watching KING ARTHUR! dvd courtesy of lynette. its quite an enjoyable movie but i think the relationship between arthur guinevere and lancelot played an absolutely unimportant part in it, and that arthur's expression was strangely ... wooden. ALWAYS THE SAME! but its quite cute larh. we managed to finish one tin of pringles bbq flavour but afterwards we solemnly vowed to buy only sour cream and onion or pizza or hotnspicy flavour in the future, because bbq flavour + salt on the chips themselves = very salty indeed.

next week we're going to watch pirates 2! at jurong point my mum has free tix. were going to watch yesterday, but figured that its probably still going to full so we'll end up getting seats so near the screen we'd walk out of the cinema with twisted necks. but cant wait anyways! :)

haha cant wait for church tomorrow! uncle john's speaking about hell. i think hell is one of the reasons some people dont want to be Christian, they're afraid of hell. of course that all sounds rather ironic, but think of it in the psychological way and it actually makes sense! gah im not making any sense, and pa's watching golf so i cant go downstairs to rewatch king arthur before i return it to lynette because the dvd doesnt work on my comp. i like lancelot and tristan and i cried when dagonet died - he was such a sweet big man, the way he found, nursed, comforted the little boy although he was the one who broke down walls and gates because of his strength. and when the little boy took the ring from the dead dagonets hand, the tears just flowed.

sabbats next week! relatively slack larh, hopefully. but the module's like all the way in kallang so how the heck am i going to get back for cca and stuff! gah. and also means loooong mrt trips so i'll have to find things to entertain me.

my nose is still killing me but everything else is fine! i have been informed that i look like rudolf's incarnate. well, thank you. and chem test was quite bad, but it wasn't as hard as people made it out to be, i guess having xin1 li3 zhun3 bei4 really helps. & class breakfast was quite good, french toast was nice! & we ended up donating sushi-like things to 311 but i have no idea what happened to it so i sincerely hope they ate it and did not leave it to rot because it wouldn't be smelling nice on monday.

gosh i just looked at my msn contact list and i see three people who added me eons ago and i still have no idea who they are. -gulp- shall go and make friends now. have a nice day! =)

& i embraced the world;

July 20, 2006

@8:09 PM

argh i feel terrible. a nose that wont stop running, a throat that wont stop burning me up, & a fever. gah i feel bad enough to decide not to practice piano today so i can sleep one hour earlier and recover. its such a horrid day to fall sick! considering there's chem test & class breakfast tomorrow. but thank goodness its flu, not like a stomach upset.

by God's grace, hopefully i'll be able to stay alive until 12 and understand everything inside the notes. as well as memorise QA & whatnot. gah i think there's medicine downstairs in the fridge but i dont dare to eat because i'll fall asleep & flunk e chem test & gah. haha then i was so smart today, go to mcdonalds and eat FRIES. i think its partly because of that that im feverish, i'll stop eating fries from now on.

hahahahaha but we took height and weight today, although results are traumatising, it means i can eat to my heart's and stomach's content again! dieting will resume three days before the next height and weight measurement, ie next year.

& i embraced the world;

July 19, 2006

@10:17 PM

i conclude i have weird taste in music.
but blackmore's night is so much love.

& i embraced the world;

July 17, 2006

@10:17 PM

national library's having a used book sale! at the expo, 12th-13th august, 9.30 - 8 =) YAY. stuff's going for quite cheap like packs of magazines, 10 for $5 kind of thing which means i might be able to get some chinese journals. and eng/chi books selling at $2!

maths test was a killer.

yes because i have nothing better to say. a random quote i saw of which of course i do not agree with, God can make better music than either of them, although i NEVER understood why angels have to drawn holding harps :

when the angels sing for God, they sing Bach; but I am sure that when they sing for each other they sing Mozart - and God eavesdrops.

ladidums! i realise that i absolutely do not appreciate vocals, except plainchant & gregorian chants, all those medieval, pre-renaissance sacred stuff. just plain vocals with no accompaniment, singing in perfect fifths or fourths, or major thirds and sixths & sounding absolutely wonderful :)

haha if anyone's interested, go watch Amadeus, its an ancient movie about Mozart. probably not very historically accurate but its shocking. as in, moving. i know i cried the first time i watched it, but then, i cry in almost any movie. i really like the portrayal of Mozart, as a genius, a prodigy, an obscenely gifted artist, but yet deep down inside he was weak. he probably never lived for himself - it was always dependence on his music, his father, his booze, his wife, the spurts of gaiety he'd get when he fooled around. but i quite liked his character - the childlike innocence and ignorance (+ a quest for love) cum very strangely, a great humility. i mean compare to Wagner who thought he was the god of music or something like that. i mean although Wagner was a wonderful composer (TRISTAN AND ISOLDE!) he was nothing of the sort can.

BLAH im getting annoyingly analytical again. if only i could analyse lit texts and comprehension passages the way i analyse characters in movies.

and last but not least, i have a crush on tchaikovsky! just ignore the fact that he was homosexual. but he really rawks all dont you think!

& i embraced the world;

July 15, 2006

@9:47 PM

just came back from my first individual guzheng class!

after being in a group guzheng class for so long, indiv is quite interesting, but e workload is high which means i need to prac a lot more! ladidums. I WILL SOMEHOW FIT IT INTO MY TIMETABLE. but its definitely worth it, as in individual because there's just so much more attention centred, & i learnt more this lesson than i did in two months in a group class. exaggeration of course.

fruit plus chewy candies especially mango flavour is <3.
SEE HOW I GREW TO MY SIZE!

hahaha so my afternoon which was meant to be peaceful was INTERRUPTED by the likes of jasmine & claire who called me and said we're at west mall can you come and help us! well actually jasmine did. so off i went and spent a good 3.5 hours at mcdonalds eating fries & mcflurries, getting fat while doing a bit of trig which really really frustrates me.

i suspect i am antisocial. yes im almost certain that i am.

ladidums. shouldnt say this here but i find my temper & patience waning. sometimes its good but a lot of the times all i can do is plaster a smile on my face or give e typical nonchalant look i give. grrr. i dont even know why im pissed and who im pissed at. its just erm, how to say. a general feeling of bu4 shuang3 ness.

did i ever mention that i have the best parents ever?
well, i do. :)

He wraps himself in light
and darkness tries to hide.

& i embraced the world;

July 14, 2006

@7:51 PM

a favour is not returned by another, but rather by the smile on the person's face when you say 'yeah sure, it's not a problem at all'.

so for anyone who hasn't yet watched brokeback mountain, you have to at least listen to the song "The Wings" by Gustavo Santaolalla. okay it isnt a song technically, it doesnt have any lyrics, just the same repetitive tune, over and over again. but that's why its so pretty, climaxing with the dynamics and resoluting with strong chords. tis nice =)

so its a friday again! & for once, tomorrow im gonna stay at home almost e entire day! whee. =)

today was a rather amusing day. mr lee strutting his stuff today during extended flag raising haha he looked quite smart actually. & HE ACTUALLY DID THE CATWALK! then mr nah turns up in a shockingly electric red shirt. i have the terrible feeling i screwed up the physics SPA, but oh well. then i traumatised brenda by the way i plot my graphs although i still dont see anything wrong with it!

then jasmine projected twochineseboys videos and they were absolutely hilarious so we had a huge kick out of it. but now i've got wilber's bu4 de2 bu4 ai4 stuck in my head, tis a really nice (but old, i think) song & its so cute! :) wilber has a really good voice cant say the same about the girl who's dueting with him. ladidums. hahahaha for those who dont know about the twochineseboys, go to youtube and type in back dorm boys, then click on any of the vids! basically they lip sync & add in ridiculous cum exaggerated actions to lots of songs.

AND AND i was free after school today! cheers =) so cheronne was lovely and accompanied me to orchard, meridien shopping centre because i wanted to check out music essentials, the store. well i wasn't disappointed by the range, but their prices need serious tweaking i mean AHHH who would pay $40 for phantom of the opera piano cum vocal cum guitar chord scores! plus on musicsheetplus they sell for $18.95! us dollars but still.

whee enough crapping! im going off to do something more productive. or watch more back dorm boys videos. oh talking of which i bought a cd! top 25 praise and worship songs 2007, i have NO idea why its 2007 but well. its really nice, albeit expensive! :)

& my orders from sheetmusicplus should come along in about 2 months time! yeah, basically i ordered a piano praise&worship scorebook, & some marimba scores online & theyre coming yep! cost $80 USD in total so im forfeiting august's pocket money & pa will sponsor me the rest! hahahaha im such a spoilt brat.

war bellows, blazing in scarlet battalions
generals order their soldiers to kill
and to fight for a cause they've long ago forgotten

- from canticle, which is from scarborough fair/canticle by simon & garfunkel.
'tis a timeless song.

& i embraced the world;

July 10, 2006

@12:11 AM

federer won!
& life makes sense again.

got an sms from some mr yeo from peps, apparently i might get to start tutoring them next week! so fun =) have no idea why im doing it actually, since i have old folks home for nyaa cip service already, but well. i <3 peps and im going to try to cultivate at least a liking for kids. plus i like doing random stuff like that. whee!

heh. life rawks a lot. i realise that i've led such a happy life for fifteen & a half years that im seriously unprepared for a lot of things. LADIDUMS IM A SPOILT BRAT. im also rather stuckup. as in, i truly dont feel that im better than other people, but a lot of the things i do, or the way i act, or the way i speak (or my lack of speaking to people) probably comes across as me being some kind of prat who thinks she's superior. sigh.

anyways, im so thankful for the spiritual journal that the SJ comm came up with! & while i was worrying because i still havent gotten a new set of devotions for july - september kind of thing. - guilty smile - & kudos to the comm! like gosh how did they come up with something like that within three weeks. and they need to keep doing it, too. jiayou!

i'm rambling too much. shall chat another day.

because we are everything we need.

& i embraced the world;

July 9, 2006

@3:21 PM

twas Grace that taught my heart to fear
and Grace, my fear relieved
how precious did that Grace appear
the hour i first believed

through many dangers, toils and snares
we have already come
twas Grace that brought us safe thus far
and Grace will lead us home.

- Amazing Grace.

grace & love, the two most human values God possesses, but the exact values that makes him so much more godly than any other god the world has ever fabricated =)

today's sermon was good, and BS (bible study) was great too. especially when we were writing down God's promises & e conditions, & when it came to love, there were absolutely no conditions. unconditional love, something which can only come from God, because humans are selfish & possessive beings by nature.

haha then out of the blue kaiwen asked me to sit in for him @ the exco meeting, so i trudged along without knowing anything, but then i couldnt answer ANY of the questions the other comm heads asked about comm comm (communications committee) so i was all ERM and terribly embarassed. so yep, im SORRY! uncle john managed to get kaiwen on the phone though, which salvaged me a bit.

sigh im supposed to be playing tennis with my daddy but judging from the dismal weather, i think not. there's absolutely nothing that can be compared with the exhiliration one gets when one executes a smash or a serve. and running around flailing my arms about trying to rush to the little bouncing neon green-yellow ball. on the professional side, mauresmo got her wimbledon, & tonight its up to federer and nadal! JIAYOU i really like both of them so i dont know who i want to win. heh.

germany got their 3rd place with 3-1, so kudos to them. now i can stop caring about the world cup because I DO NOT CARE FOR THE FINALS. frankly i dont care about football in general. but well, the world cup's an exception kuz germany is <3.

& i embraced the world;

July 7, 2006

@9:46 PM

the first.

so, don't ask why i chose to change my blog. just decided to.
then i also decided that i LIKED my layout and couldnt be bothered to change it all, so i kept it and well, everything looks the same except my URL, of course.

anyhow, i meant to blog about band concert, funfair prep, funfair, lee pei ming concert, co concert, youth day, general random stuff, and halfday today which ended up not being half, but im really entirely too lazy right now, so!

PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT TO WHOEVER VISITS THIS BLOG
(although that amounts to a scant few individuals)
if you have children-youth's old clothings, shoes, books, games, textbooks, toys you dont want anymore, PLEASE GIVE THEM TO ME! or if you're from school, put them in the regional cip boxes near the audi, near the rock wall, and the humans department. if you're NOT from school and its inconvenient, i can pick em up for you from your place or something. sometime.

meanwhile, congratulations to mellissa (yeo) & shimin for getting into exco! with posts of secretary & BM respectively. shall get flowers for them. talking of flowers, im really horrid @ buying flowers for people, because i use my preference to choose, which means people end up with bunches of white flowers and ym said it looks like im going to a funeral. but i really think white flowers are gorgeous, especially orchids.

mum is pissed at me, for quite a good reason. well basically after dinner i said that i'm going to slack today & she sort of glared disapprovingly & said, well havent you been slacking the entire week already? & that got me really pissed off because i've been working my guts out, so i burst out with a rather erm. disrespectful retort & so we're now having a cold war. sigh.

need to work on my temper.
Ephesians 4:26 Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry.
but seriously, my mum recovers after a good night's sleep.

and i refuse to watch the world cup finals! wimbledon is so much more interesting. =) the only sad thing is that ancic got slaughtered by federer, hewitt by some random person who's ranked a lot lower than him, dementieva & vaidisova are out, myskina got beaten by mauresmo AGAIN, so that means all my fave players are gone also. sigh. but i rather like federer and nadal.

passed by peps on wednesday on the way to jurong east library. realised i really miss peps band, everybody in it, the band room, the conductors, our instructor. i loved being in perc, we had the best seniors & of course we got scolded a lot but we still rocked. our CD is so much <3! color="#3333ff">lord of the dance is officially the best perc ensemble i've ever heard & i still harth american folk fantasia, warabe-uta fantasy, katak lompat, carnival de paris, etc. its probably nothing compared to persis or phantom or gelato or glenn miller or ride, but naturally i felt so much more a part of it (duh). and its just beautiful. =)

the only thing i felt proud of today was the fact that i advanced four bars in la cathedrale engloutie. haha hardly a wonderful accomplishment but being me i get pleased with the smallest random details. if i jiayou more i might be able to learn it by the time miss foo goes off and i'll really miss her kuz shes a rawkass piano/theory teacher. the rest of the day i've just felt incredibly shibai. especially when sam & shimin wanted to hear me & the sec 1s play which was disastrous.

i've talked a lot of crap. so hm, shall go off now and practice the chords charissa gave me. and listen to the kryptonite riff solo which looks incredibly complicated unless its played at like adagio pace or something. haha talking of which, saw "spring, summer, fall, winter ... and spring again" selling at HMV for $7.95! haha shall tell the class and someone will buy it and screen it, i'd bet.

nanyang primary school food and funfair tomorrow!

aiyah i cant think of a proper way to end this post, so yep, talk again tomorrow, hopefully!

A person has three choices in life. You can swim against the tide and get exhausted, or you can tread water and let the tide sweep you away, or you can swim with the tide, and let it take you where it wants you to go.

wouldn't you rather swim against the current to get to the place you know you truly want to go?

& i embraced the world;